BloodyLai

I have come to play the game
I was once addicted to it
That even my own time that i put too much through it
I can't help myself to think about it if it was all over
I even made such strategies and plans for me to win it over
As I was about to reach to the point of its peak
I saw a sign that I might be putting myself into trap
Then somebody told me not to look back
For I hear three people who cried out who lose the battle
Thinking the possible hints and cues why they lose
I was stupid not to realize all the signs and cues
For there was a strip of cloth bind to my own sight
Still going to the point of losing my own mind
Then I fell in the joy of the game
It wasn't just a game for me but a life to keep
It was like a drug that is so addicting that made me go insane
For I have come to realize now
That it was only me who had been played by the game all over somehow.

In my heart, I whisper your name
It's like every notes I hear is like you're in pain
I wonder where you have been
I might be dreaming since you left
You never said anything to me
How can I see the reality between you and me
Each moment I linger seems like only a dream
I search every corner but you were never there for me
Nights and days, I am seeing your face
But woke up from the realities of pains
I wonder if you saw me after the last time we met
If you did, can you hear the words shouting in my mind?
I needed you, I love you dear
These are just the few words that stay within my mind
And in my heart though it is shattered with fear of losing you
Did you ever think of me? Did you miss me?
I guess I am only one dreaming that it will be forever you and me.






Note:
i will be putting chords on this and translate to japanese and make it to a song.. hope he likes it.. wherever you are dear.. i really miss you..

The silence that surrounded me
Echoes beneath my shoulder
It seems like it was hugging me in the cold
I wish someone could give me enough courage
But no one seeks to give me enough reason to hold
My sufferings blind me like a melancholy lyrics
I sought to find truth to all my troubles
But I never meant to seek a pain of strings
Since my fate had twisted like I was supposed to be blame
Blood drops as I raise myself to the ground
I have put myself in a drastic shame
I never had been so selfish
Just to get your full attention
Yes, my life had been so messy these days
Like a deep abyss that tries to confuse me in shame
I cannot compare my life before and now
Knowing it always been perfect unlike now
Someone tells me to cheer up
Laugh hard and don't ever give up
Chase my dreams like a never ending page of desires
But it seems like I was too blind
Finding out it was then my shadow
Who have talked to me after all even until now

You were watching me day by day

As if I can hear footsteps before I gaze

I keep running back and forth away from you

But you keep me holding back to you

'Till my image in darkness had gone in view

I was looking for myself in this empty room

A mocking face lit up on a one full moon

I was terrified seeing you with those fangs you can't hide

Shouting in vain till my fears cannot be denied

Because I saw your true image on this cloudy night

I am trying not to be scared after all

Helpless because of my limited human actions

With just a stare in your eyes

I can't help myself to fall

Now I am trapped to you forever in this nightfall

I feel weak, every temptations that I seek

Is what makes me come and look for you

Worries is not the price for all of these tears

I just wonder where you have been

I think you just need your woman not me as I am

I accepted you as you are and I don't care if you think you are different from us

All I want is the real you and nothing less or more

I chose a different path to fulfill the happiness of others

Abandonment is not what I meant

This is also my happiness including you in my own world

Guess its too late then to bring back the past

You may choose them instead of having me as your best

I can't explain my feelings if it has been remove or not

But whatever mystery happening now,

All I believe are the happy times we are sharing our true smiles

Nothing can take that away from me while you're gone.